update on everyones favorite cripple

so as some of you may or may not know i battle with depression... i guess i always have.  anyone its gotten to the point where i have to start cing my shrink again and i have my first appointment tomorrow as a matter of fact... i have a lot of things that i keep bottled up inside me & at times can get very moody to those who try and help me....  i find lately i can't really get a grip on my emotions.  i could be a little bi polar to not even so sure... i just feel my emotions to the most extreme possible especially when it comes to sadness..  i can be sad fordays ata time and it may take awhile for me to get out of it.  i know seeing her tomorrow will help release some of my bottled up feelings...  spring is here and i'm gunna try to keep myself in a happier state of mind(the nice weather helps with that as well)  i have lots to look fwd to including my trip to los angeles i take just about every year.. should be doing that around july sometime... i also tun 30this summer so i want to plan a huge party with that... :) dating?  just not interesdted anymore... i know it sounds silly but to me it seems to become a very stressful thing for me... as long as i have my friends and family thats all i really want at this moment...:)  i want this to be a stressfree summer for me wuith no more room for sadness.. i hope it will happen...