a whole buncha emotions

well it seems that a week from today i have a DATE with a GUY.. the date part is not really the weird part.. the GUY part is.. i really don't know why it just does.... maybe its cuz most of the girls i'm meeting just have 2 much fucking baggage like kids and pushing themselves on me when i'm not really all that interested... i have enough shit and issues of my own do i really need to take on someone ele's shit? i don't think so.  so i decided to give this dude a shot.. he seems really nice & at first i'll admit i was trying to think of EVERY possiable reason to push him away.... just cuz i fear being hurt so bad.... but as i got to talking to him i can't seem to stop... we've been talking and txting like crazy and he has nothing but compliments to give me... in a way, i guess he's bu7ilding my self esteem up again SLOWLY but he is...  i am still very apprehensive.. but what do i have to lose right?  if anything he'll just be another fried and you can never have to many of those....  it's just.. that with everything i've been through in the past i can't help but think that someway, somehow he's going to hurt me.  i know its crazy to think like that but when you've been shit on so much as i have by just about every one i've ever given my heart to its kinda hard not 2.....  maybe its my fear of him not understading someone like me & viewing the world through my eyes... i seem to find myself connecting better with those people who deal with struggles and who themselves have issues of some kind.  i feel like i'm going out on a limb here and i'm scared:(  i really don't even know if i wanna go through with this......:(